Feeling a bit gray right now. Maybe it's because I have to wake up early tomorrow to go to the clinic. Or maybe what that pill lady said to me yesterday is still hanging on my shoulders. I should've just told her off, but instead I kept on being polite. I had a dream last night that seemed to tell me that I needed to cry. Probably healthy, but I haven't done that yet. I want a friend or a lover to hug and talk to right now. Maybe it's because I don't have that option right now that I feel the need to write on here right now instead. But I don't really have much to say. I'd rather just go for the hug. I miss the sleepovers I used to have when I was younger. But those friends have left me already. That tarot reading sure was accurate, I've been feeling very nostalgic this week. 

//Silje

Epilepsy

I have epilepsy. Or, I might have epilepsy. I've had seizures, like 6 or 7, the most common one where your whole brain is affected and you lose consciousness. It's really scary because when you wake up you have memory loss. I've also hurt myself very badly from falling off my chair when having the seizure. I hit my face really badly in April, half of my face was swollen and bruised, it still hurts a bit when I touch my cheek, I hope it will go away soon. Why I say that I might have epilepsy is because the seizures could be caused from a medication that I'm taking atm. So today I talked with the pill lady doctor at the psychiatric hospital (whom I don't really like lol) and we have decided that I'm slowly gonna reduce my medication starting from today. I really hope that it will get better. I take medications for my seizures too, but they are a bit unreliable. I'm still scared whenever I walk the staircase or take a shower that I'm gonna have a seizure and fall really really badly. But I try to stay positive. I'm strong, I can manage. :)

Strangers From Hell, K-drama

I'm currently rewatching Strangers From Hell, a k-drama (a Korean drama show) which can be found on Netflix. Although you most often always love a show more the first time you watch it, I'm still enjoying rewatching this one. Strangers From Hell is the show which got me into horror. I didn't like horror before, but now I enjoy watching horror shows. If you are interested in reading the synopis, please click on this link: Strangers From Hell synopsis. But it's an 18+ rated show on Netflix (although my personal opinion would be 16+) and it is horror, so don't watch it if you're not old enough or if you don't feel ready. 

Tarot

A new oracle card deck arrived today with the mail. I'm still waiting for a few more. I've been thinking that it could be really fun if I could use tarot here on this site somehow, for you, the people who read it. But I'm not really sure how to go about it yet. Lol maybe I could make 'pick a card's like the videos on YouTube, but just writing it on here instead. I could have pictures of the cards and then you could click on which one draws you in, and then I could do a general reading link that you get to when you click on the card. But maybe I should wait until someone actually reads my blog lol, otherwise I would just be doing it for myself. 

Today I've been listening to these songs a lot:

Juniper - Nearly Oratorio

Nuvole Bianche - Ludovico Einaudi

nihilist blues - Bring Me The Horizon

//Silje

Hello, hi :) So, I'm doing this again lol. I wonder how many blogs I've made so far... I don't wanna know. Don't search for them and don't read them! Well anyway, I missed blogging. I like to write about my thoughts, interests etc. and I want to share them with whoever wants to read them. 

Silje is my name. I became an adult in February this year. I have a lot of interests, and things and people that I love. I'm into tarot and astrology, my sun sign is Pisces, my moon sign is Gemini and my ascendant is Cancer. I also really love music, I'm better at listening to it than I am playing it lol. Drawing is, and have always been something that I've loved since early early childhood. I hope that I can share some of my drawings or artwork here on this blog in the future (I'm currently in the midst of creating something ^^). I'm really into learning languages because I love being able to communicate with a lot of different people. My best friends are from Australia and Norway, so being able to speak in different languages have enabled me great friendships. I'm currently studying Korean by myself (but I'm quite lazy lol). Spanish and Japanese are also on-hold. I love being out in nature. I also love this guy named Jungkook extremely very much >.< 

A lot of things happen/have happened in my life, I feel like a main character of some drama or manga or something lol, it's a bit too much honestly. Although I am writing this blog mostly for my own enjoyment, it would bring me great joy if I could comfort or inspire whoever reads this blog in the future. Or you could just laugh at me and my life for your entertainment lol.

//Silje